A couple of months ago, I wrote how I had met this wonderful guy who summarized all I have been missing in my previous relationships.
I just realized that I forgot to post any update on that.
I guess life wanted to teach me yet another lesson, namely that it doesn’t matter how many boxes someone ticks. Without love, it just doesn’t work.
There’s not much I can say about what happened. We had a wonderful time while it lasted. Unfortunately, it just didn’t last. Now we’re back to square one and trying to build a platonic friendship.
Having gone through the realization that it wouldn’t work, did cost me a lot of my self-esteem and caused some setbacks. But in the end, I had to remind myself that my happiness was not dependent on anybody but myself.
In no way am I saying that this was easy, it cost me a lot of energy and pain, but I’m getting there.
I do ask myself why I never learn. The thing is that, no matter how much I try, I can not enjoy being intimate with someone I don’t feel some connection with. I guess I must be old-fashioned or something.
This blog is short and has no real reason for being, just me rambling on a bit. Hope you liked it anyway.